Happy Thursday Everyone!
Hettie has returned to us! She sent a reply to yesterday’s blog… and I feel compelled to make this the topic of today’s discussion. First, I’m pasting her comments… then I will write my reply. I hope this blesses Hettie… and I hope it helps anyone that may be in a similar situation!
Hey Chuck… I know it has been awhile. I began to sort of fall of the path that God had me on. This Blog was really a coincidence. I have been trying to force a relationship that I believe God didn’t want for me anymore, maybe not at all.
I feel so lost sometimes. I let everyone down and I made myself look like such a hypocrite. I talked so bad about the person that was hurting me and I went right back to him, WOW how dumb huh. Sometimes I feel so alone and I need someone there and it doesn’t feel like God is, which I know he is, so I go running back to this person and I think I love him but when I am with him I just don’t feel happy and that I am following what God wants for me.
I feel like my life is spinning out of control sometimes and no one will stop it, I really need some guidance I am so lost and have no clue were to begin to find my way to were I need to be.
I’m sorry Chuck… and to everyone that I let down. I was doing so good and then Satan drew me back to something I was running from. I dearly apologize to everyone. I’m just so young and sometimes I don’t know what to do with myself.
Chuck, keep me in your prayers. I am trying with all of my might to do what is right and what God has in store for me. I guess I don’t know how to look for what God is trying to tell me. I don’t know what he wants from me so then I feel lost and alone.
Even though I haven’t been attending church I still pray alot and read my bible everyday. I just hope God will show me something soon so I know where to start my life with him, and I also hope that I can interpret what he wants and that it’s him wanting it for me. I hope that I can begin to build trust with the ones that matter the most to me, I have let everyone down that cares.
Hettie
Good morning Hettie… your comments bring me GREAT joy! I have been praying for you and I have not lost hope that you would someday rise again! There is a tiny little seed inside of your heart… the seed of a history maker! You’re never going to be able to enjoy going in the wrong direction again. God started that fire you’re carrying… he began a very real work in your life… and HE will be faithful to complete it!
That was beautiful of you to apologize… and it’s a very rare thing for someone, especially your age, to have that kind of humility! It’s even further evidence that God is working in your life! Way to go on reading your bible and praying… whenever we put Gods word in our heart, it will NOT RETURN TO HIM WITHOUT PRODUCING FRUIT! It wakes us up at night like the whispering winds… it wrestles down wrong thinking and gives us disgust for wrong actions… it leads us home!
You already know the path that leads to that amazing future you know God has for you! You already know that it calls for the burning of every bridge… for you to RUN YOUR RACE and NEVER LOOK BACK! You’re only a few steps away from being right where you were… and setting yourself up for some CRAZY HAPPY DAYS!
I’m not promising that this will be easy… in fact it will not be easy. There will be times of intense persecution! The hell you are coming out of will hunt for you! The flames will grab for your ankles often… dark forces will circle you and taunt you like devouring vultures! But I know so well, the MIGHTY LOVE AND POWER of God! He will send his ANGELS… he will make you strong… he will be MORE RELENTLESS! Hettie, I am confident that you CAN make it, and you will make it! And you will not have to make it ALONE!
When you were at church, there were some women that REALLY caught a heart for you… they are ready to TEACH you the ways of the FORCE just as soon as you are ready to LEARN the ways of the FORCE! So… get your container of gasoline and a box of matches… and BURN THE BRIDGES OF YOUR PAST. Get rid of EVERYTHING that carries the potential of enticing you back into misery. Be polite and humble… and be firm! Let your friends know that you are going away so you can get well… and you will come back for them in something like 5 years from today… once you are healthy and well able to rescue them!
As far as needing to know what God has for your future and how you are going to get there… don’t stress out! For now… just know that God LOVES you like crazy and these next few years are supposed to become the best days of your life!
Hope this helps Hettie… and I pray this blog adds great value to all our amazing blogger friends! Please send your comments… chat with you all later!
No Hettie I do not think this was a coincidence,I think this is the way the Lord is
showing you the way back to Him .He is the only way we will every find LOVE,HAPPINESS
AND PEACE. You said you feel lost sometimes ,I say that you have been FOUND WITH
PASTOR CHURCH PRAYING AND ALL OF HIS BLOG FRIEND PRAYING .AND THE DFC LADIES SO YOU JUST KEEP TALKING TO THE LORD .LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING YOU AT DFC
HOPE THIS PSALM HELP'S i PUT YOUR NAME IN
Psalm 91:9-16 (New Living Translation)
9 If Hettie make the LORD your refuge,
if Hettie make the Most High your shelter,
10 no evil will conquer Hettie;
no plague will come near Hettie home.
11 For he will order his angels
to protect Hettie wherever you go.
12 They will hold Hettie up with their hands
so Hettie won’t even hurt your foot on a stone.
13 Hettie will trample upon lions and cobras;
Hettie will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!
14 The LORD says, “I will rescue those who love me.
I will protect those who trust in my name.
15 Hettie call on me, I will answer;
I will be with Hettie in trouble.
I will rescue and honor Hettie.
16 I will reward Hettie with a long life
and give Hettie my salvation.”
First of all– what a powerful and beautifully written response! Each liquid line seemed to flow like oil while provoking a strengthening, or a raised-up sensation; like watching a clip of the rising sun in fast-forward! This was no "coincidental" blog. This was Hettie's heart and soul, bared in an honest plea to God. This was for MANY. And God spoke through a man of God this morning.
Second, to address Hettie, Pastor was right-on! About everything– just relax in knowing God is arranging a wonderous life for you..is preparing treasures you haven't even dreamed of! Jesus is seeing everything that happens in your life. It is exciting to know that you are so in tune with the Holy Spirit! That a step in the WRONG direction brings discomfort in your heart– use this like a compass! Thank you, Hettie, for your blog, for your open honesty. Guess what? God has just used you!! For I know you have touched others deeply. Praying for you!–kristin via
HEY HEY THE GANGS ALL HERE FOR YOU HETTIE!!!! CLIMB ABOARD THE ANGEL TRAIN TO VICTORY..WE LOVE GAL AND CAN NOT WAIT TO SEE YOU SOON..CHIN UP ,ARMS STRETCHED TO HEAVEN .AND SMILE..GOD IS SOOOO GOOD AND HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH–PAM
Hettie,
I don’t know you but I came out of a similar type of relationship when I was young. I knew God but could not get away from the pull my boyfriend(later husband)had on me. I could not stand to be with him but also could not stand to be away from him. I fully understand your feelings and I did love him but he was toxic for me. The only way that I survived that was with God. He rescued me. There were many times that I turned from God but He never left me. My family and freinds and church family continued to pray for me just like Pastor Chuck and your DFC family are praying for you. I beleive their prayers for me are what finally gave me the courage and strength to walk away from the relationship I was in. It was not easy at all. In fact it was one of the worst things I have ever been through. But, I started praying for God to send me the man that He wanted me to spend the rest of my life with and prayed for his strength to stay away from the other relationship. Now, I am married to a wonderful Christian man that treats me like a queen and have two beautiful children. And yes we have our problems too but with God in the center of your relationship and the head of our family, we can get through anything. Hettie, God did it for me and he can do it for you too!! I will keep praying for you. If you ever want to talk let me know, you can call me anytime(our number is in the book)and I will be there for you. Keep on praying and reading your word and keep your eyes on Jesus. HE LOVES YOU SOOOOOO MUCH!!
Hey Hettie,
I'm not sure if you know me but I went to acquire the fire with you (I roomed with Heaven) anyway, nothing is a coincidence in life although it may seem that way at times, its all God. You know Hettie we all have that love shaped hole that only God can fill and we try so hard to find a "fit" for it and fill it with what and or who we think fits but we soon find out that nothing fits that hole, why? because its God that must first fill us up overflowing to the brim and then and only then will be know what path to take next.
You keep doing what you know to do is right and Let God do the rest. Surround yourself with people who love you and will support you and help you along the way. Start where you are and don't worry about where you have been. Keep reading your bible and come back to church for love and support.
I will be praying for you. Im glad you are back. I had a lot of fun with you at acquire the fire! You are awesome!
Outstanding comments you guys!! Wow… I have been feeling the LOVE all day long! This is one of my favorite blogs ever! Thanks for commenting everyone… you're all super duper people!
Wow………what am amazing blog!!!! We all need to take this as a call to watch out for the young that are being hunted. We must pray for them and for the Holy Spirit to rise up in them during these tough times.
Thank you Hettie for your heart response!!!! I am praying for you.
WOW thank you everyone for you beautiful, encouraging blogs. Each one of you made wonderful points and they really touched my heart and really make me think. My life hasn't been the easiest but Im not going to use it as a crutch anymore but as a story, as a light to others. To show people that no matter what God is here and loves you no matter your situation. No matter if you have lots of money or no money a story book life or ones you never hear about! I am not happy with the way my life has gone but from the words of Kayne West (a famous rapper) "Now that that don't kill me, can only make me stronger." I am a person that loves music, I love to hear a song that really speak to me. Sometimes it makes me think I not the only person going through a hard time. I love to listen to my Dads old band Elijah Again. There song Yesterday is my favorite, I am actually listening to it right now and man does it speak to me. I plan to listen to God with all of my heart and soul. I know where am now is not all for me, he has such a greater plan for me and I want to go and beyonf for him. I want to save so many people through my light and my life story. Sometimes you have to be down at the bottom to see how truly wonderful the top can be! This road Im trying to stay on is very hard right not because Satan keeps throwing rocks in my way but I know God and I and going to over come and come to a road much great than what I am on now. I cant fail when I have on my side, I might not acheive what I want right away but I know it will come when God has it planned. I love you guys and appreciate your words and thoughts. Most of all your prayers.
Chuck thank you and DFC so much for your love and support. Keep me in your prayers. I plan to come to DFC on Sunday with Jessica Smith, Awesome Woman of God!
Hettie
wow Hettie, I love that song too! I have that cd! I don't know who your dad is but Kevin Harris gave us the cd and I listen to it a lot myself. I even have it loaded in my mp3 player. My favorite is the hidden tract. You know, you should consider getting a blog established for yourself and diary out this journey God has you on. Who knows, it could be a devotional book someday and in the meantime you will be in the healing process and helping others along your path with your prayers and encouragement. Ask Pastor Chuck to introduce you to Jonathan and have him set you up with your own .com wordpress if you want. It could be a good prayer line for you too. Pray about it and Jonathan can be found in childrens church with Emily.
You are right about Jessica, you hang tight to her and Like Pastor said there is several women in the church who will take you under their wing as well. In fact, I wish I had of thought sooner to ask you to come to prayer meeting tonight. We have intercessory prayer meeting every Thursday night at 5:30-7:30 then worship team practices until 9pm so any Thursday night COME ON and pray with us, hang out, soak it in. They meet again on Sat nights at 9pm-Midnight. I come on Thursdays.
Know and believe that you are loved by us and we are praying for you and we are here for you.
My Dearest Hettie,
Wow!! You show an awesome display of God! I don't know you personally and you don't know me but we are sisters in Christ.
Im not even sure how old you are, but I know that I must be a few years older than you.
I don't know your circumstances but I do know that no matter WHAT they are, God is bigger than ANYTHING you are facing!
I just turned 35 yesterday, and my life has been a series of up's and downs. My home life wasn't the greatest growing up and I didn't have many resources. After High School, for the first time in my life I started down the right path…..everything seemed to be going my way, then it all went wrong again. For the next 13 years I battled with what seemed to be invisible forces that kept bringing me down no matter how hard I tried to stay up. I always knew Jesus, I read my bible occassionaly, and went to church when it fit into my life.
I became even more miserable and couldn't understand why, and no one could really tell me why. Finally, I hit the bottom. I had everything that a woman could dream of……I nice house, cars, money………but I was miserable!!!! Then, something happened inside my heart! The gracious God that I had always known, picked me up and has held me ever since!
You have that God right beside you too and HE loves you more than ANYTHING or ANYONE else can! That still small voice that you have inside you, the one that compells you to do right, is your BEST FRIEND EVER!
It is no coincidence that you have been placed in the path of such Godly people at DFC, this is part of God's plan for you. Find it somewhere inside yourself to reject what you know is bad, and cling to what is good!
We will always battle with Satan and our own selves, we will always be faced with decisions in life, some decisions have good consequences, some have bad consequences. The devil is a liar!!!! He always tries to convince us that it's OK. In fact, one of the biggest lies he tells us is …….( we have more time). Have you ever known the right thing to do but you think to yourself, I'll do it tomorrow??? I'll tell someone I Love them tomorrow, I'll stop doing this….tomorrow. Don't put off what you can do today.
Just remember this………God Says:
"For I know the plans I have for you." says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
You were born for a reason…..God has had a plan for your life since before you were born, and He will continue to guide you to perfection!!!!! I love you Hettie and so does Jesus! Hang in there, I will be praying for you!
Hettie
No one knows the pain you've been going through over the past 5-6 years as much as i do… I love u hettie and know if u totally submit yourself to GOD he will heal your past…I think I tried to hard in my own strength to help u but i had to back off and let GOD show u which way to turn…I will always be here for you and love u but i'm not going to interfere with GOD's plan for u and your life…I do know that God has great things in store for u. Remember what pastor chuck said about digging your claws in and also lighting a match to the past. Take baby steps and before u know it u will be jumping hurdles over the enemy….
I love U Very Much,
Your Aunt,
Debi
Hettie,
your response put a spring in my step!!! I am so glad that you realize that your life and story are going to impact others for the Kingdom. I don’t know you or your story, but that doesn’t matter. What matters is that you continue to cling to God and to continue moving forward. I can tell you want to and that is what God asks of us and desires from us!!!! Keep digging in the Word.
Hugs,
Nuala
hey Hettie in your last comment you said “Sometimes you have to be down at the bottom to see how truly wonderful the top can be! This road Im trying to stay on is very hard right not because Satan keeps throwing rocks in my way” and it reminded me of the song Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns and it starts out ‘Oh what I would do to have the kind of faith it takes
to climb out of this boat I’m in, onto the crashing waves to step out of my comfort zone into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is, and he’s holding out his hand’.. and that to me takes a LOT of faith, which you have definitely proved to have. And then it goes on to say ‘but the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me reminding me of all the times I’ve tried before and failed the waves they keep on telling me time and time again “Boy, you’ll never win, you’ll never win.” ‘ the chorus says ‘but the voice of truth tells me a different story the voice of truth says “do not be afraid!” and the voice of truth says “this is for my glory” out of all the voices calling out to me I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth’ and its so hard sometimes to hear that voice because there are so many others trying to scream over top of it because they dont want you to be able to hear that voice becaause they know its telling you the right thing.. they want so bad for you to stumble and fall but if you just close your eyes and focus then all the other voices will fade away and God will be the ONLY voice.. the voice of truth that wants nothing for you but great things. The next verse of this song says ‘Oh, what I would do to have the kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant with just a sling and a stone surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors shaking in their armor wishing they’d have had the strength to stand but the giant’s calling out my name and he laughs at me reminding me of all the times I’ve tried before and failed the giant keeps on telling me time and time again “boy you’ll never win, you’ll never win.” ‘ then the chorus repeats and then this next part is what your comment reminded me of ‘but the stone was just the right size to put the giant on the ground AND THE WAVES THEY DONT SEEM SO HIGH FROM ON TOP OF THEM LOOKIN DOWN I will soar with the wings of eagles when I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus singing over me’ every time i hear that verse it gives me chills and its so true.. the devil is so big when hes the dominant one in your life but you usually notice it until your trying to get away and then he seems to be everywhere you look.. but when your up in Gods arms he doesnt seem so big and scary anymore.. this song really speaks to me so I just figured Id share. C: love you girl you are in my thoughts and prayers.