I’m writing form Northern VA this morning, @ Heaven Balsamo’s new college home. Coree is staying here for a few weeks while his dorm is being prepared.
After a very long day of packing, loading, driving, unloading (up and down three flights of stairs), unpacking, and grocery shopping… in torrential rainy conditions, Heaven and Coree are officially gone from home.
Whereas Emily and I are thrilled to watch them leap from our safe nest and into the boundless skies, we’re beside ourselves about having to leave them here.
I really have no idea how I am going drive away from here this evening. Dear God, if I have ever needed you, I need you now.
Coree Johnathan Balsamo
I still remember like it was yesterday, the moment Coree was born… it is the only time in my life when I cried without knowing that I was crying. Then, I cut the umbilical cord and held him in my arms for the very first time (after Emily held him first of course). He has been such a good son. Even the things I would have changed about him throughout the years… I now see those things as his greatest strengths. Coree has a compassionate heart, brilliant mind, creative spirit, and a deep love for God that will never fade away. Coree values family more than any kid his age. He is going to make a great husband and father someday. Coree is ready to fly!
By the time Coree was just a little over 1 year old, Emily had successfully claimed him as her mommas boy. I’ve never tried to fight Emily on this, knowing the way her eyes light up every time his name is mentioned. She loves Coree exactly the way my mom loved me… and it’s such a beautiful thing to watch. Coree sure does love her back… with a love that makes her SHINE!
I’ve heard it said that once children become young adults, sons gravitate toward their Dad’s and daughters gravitate toward their Mom’s, as they face gender specific adult issues. It’s ok, because I know my son loves me and I’m ok with him being a momma’s boy… but I am definitely excited about developing more of that man to man relationship with my amazing son throughout the many years to come!
And then came Heaven
It was way back in the summer of 1992, you can never imagine the joy I found on that August day when I first held my daddy’s girl! We named her Heaven to contrast the difficulties Emily endured during that pregnancy. Heaven is the child that almost didn’t make it. I’ll never forget standing outside of the surgery room at UVA while Emily went under the knife @ four months. I pleaded with God to let my baby live… to let her develop perfectly and not come into this world until the time was just right… to make her healthy and happy all the days of her very long life. God answered those prayers!
Heaven has been the greatest daddy’s girl of all time. She has always been so much more than beautiful to me. Heaven is turning into the Bibles ideal lady… a Proverbs 31 woman! Well, almost. She has not acquired a love for children yet… but I’m positive this will change WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT. And she will bear us a few beautiful grandchildren. lol
Heaven is my personal cheerleader. She always makes me feel like I’m the greatest human being alive. The way she adores me… it melts my heart! The bond between us is so strong, I fear how she will survive my eventual death. If anybody in this whole world NEEDS me and gives my life purpose, Heaven does. And I need her so badly, it’s killing me to let her go.
Coree + Heaven = Joy!
Heaven and Coree laugh more than any teenagers… they smile big and laugh hard! They are dangerously adventurous! When Heaven walks into a room, the pictures fly off the walls! Her energy is way off the charts! It’s highly contagious! No matter how I am feeling when Heaven shows up, I am always feeling better in less than two minutes! Coree’s energy is more of an internal energy. Even though he has his hyper moments, Coree does not speak or act until the timing is PERFECT. Coree has the gift of influence, everybody does whatever Coree does! Coree never does the same thing twice. He is a creator!
Put Coree and heaven in the same room and something EPIC always happens! For 18 years, they have painted our lives with JOY. And when we go back home today without them, we will never have this DAILY privilege again. :,(
Most adult couples have best friends outside of the family. Even though we have many great friends, Coree and Heaven are by far, our BEST friends! We love them as much as two parents can love their kids. God, we need your help today…
This blog was written with more tears than any other.
I guess the only downside to sharing this kind of love is the pain it creates during separation.
‘Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. -Alfred Lord Tenyson
Dear God help me!
This morning, I pray for relationships… that God will heal fractured family and friendship, strengthen decent ones, and give you a bond of love like the one I’ve written about this morning. I pray also, for every mom and dad who is suffering as we suffer today. I pray for every child who is heading off to college, or into the military, or into marriage, etc… for every person who has every had to say a painful goodbye… for every person who is saying a painful goodbye today. God give you peace.
Psalms 31:9 O’ Lord have mercy on me in my anguish. My eyes are red from weeping; my health is broken from sorrow.
Psalms 147:3 He heals the broken heartened, binding up their wounds.
John 14:18 No, I will not abandon you or leave you as orphans in the storm-I will come to you.
Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in times of trouble.
Jeremiah 31:13 I will turn their mourning into gladness. I will give them comfort and joy instead of sorrow.
2 Corinthians1:3-4 What a wonderful God we have-He is the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the source of every mercy, and the one who so wonderfully comforts and strengthens us in our hardships and trials.And why does He And why does He doe this? So that when others are troubled, needing our sympathy and encouragement, we can pass on to them this same help and comfort God has given us.
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With much love…
Dream Big, Live Bold, and Make the Difference!