Intense Brokenness, Humility, New Revelation, and…

Happy Friday!

God loves us so much more than we will ever comprehend. His love is incomprehensible! Sometimes, our lives become too rushed and complicated to feel God.

In those times we pray, but we don’t really feel anything.

We reach for God, but as we reach, there seem to be hands coming out of hell grabbing at us from the dark… pulling us away from the warmth of being perfectly joined with our Father.

Then comes a collapse so painful, we lay on the ground never expecting to rise… and in those broken places, God comes to us with His love.

This week, it seems the God has interrupted my rushed and complicated existence to LOVE ME in an unimaginable way! I’ve journeyed through intense brokenness, humility, new revelation, and one of the top 5 realities of God’s love and presence… of my entire life.

There are two prime causes behind this encounter.

  1. The unbearable pain of losing my dear friend Rocky Floyd. (Please read yesterdays blog, Rocky Lane Floyd: The Man Who Cared.)
  2. I just happened to be editing the last few chapters of my book this week, and yesterday afternoon I stumbled into the most INTROSPECTIVE segment of my entire book.

Here is an excerpt from that introspective segment…

Make Me a Legend

Chapter 15: Bow Lower As You Climb Higher

Humility Is Simple For The Humiliated Person

Up to this point, I have had my equal share of high successes and low failures—and everything in between! Since entering into full-time ministry 10+ years ago—I have been hunted, humiliated, and broken to pieces like few people I’ve ever known! Believe me, I have died a thousand deaths to remain in my life calling—that’s not an exaggeration!

In May of 2009, I was two months into the worse betrayal of my life. There has never been a close second. From my perspective, that situation was on a Biblical scale much like the stories of Absalom betraying David, or Judas Iscariot betraying Jesus Christ. Things were so painful that I could not see a single flicker of light in my tunnel of horror! There was one particular day during that unbearable time, when I had been hiding under the sheets of my bed, crying for most of the morning. Around noon, I fumbled my way into the bathroom, fell to my knees, then down to my face—and all alone on my bathroom floor, I wailed like a dying animal!

Somehow, I wound up in fetal position; the room was spinning in circles and I felt like I was having a massive heart attack! The pain was so intense; I hurled my puke onto the floor because I could not make it to the toilet. If I could have gotten to the phone, I would have called for an ambulance! During that time, I told my wife one night, “Honey, I’m losing my mind! This pressure is so intense, I’m scared I might just flip out, strip down naked, run out into the road, and dance around like a chicken until the police pick me up.” Have you ever known this kind of pain before? I have never experienced anything even remotely close to the agony of that betrayal.

Oh, please don’t feel bad for me. I didn’t die that day. Just when I thought I would never see the outside of that master bathroom again, God knelt down in my vomit, scooped me into His loving arms, and held me close until that storm was passed. Just like the poem, “Footprints in the Sand,” I look back from here, and all I see is one set of footprints!

I am writing to you from the blessing side of that dark trial. The pain that came to kill me definitely made me better! Not just then, but every time in my life when it seemed like I was kicked down so low that I would never be able to rise from the ashes of my destruction—by an act of God, I lived to see a better day. Rejection creates humility, and humility arouses grace. “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.” (James 4:5b NIV) God does give grace to the humble—and there is nothing like a vicious betrayal to humble a person!

Humility is simple for a humiliated person. Every time we make it out of a dark valley alive, we see more clearly the benefits of brokenness. The Apostle Paul wrote about the hidden value of painful circumstances. He said, “That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever.” (2 Corinthians 4:16-18 NLT)

Have you recently or are you right now facing a similar degree of pain in your own life? Don’t let it kill you. Instead, leverage your humility! Don’t waste this trial playing the victim. A portal is opening with the mysterious blessing of this new humility, STEP INTO the love of your heavenly Father like you’ve never been able to do it before.

The following is a video recently aired on God TV. It’s Misty Edwards singing Arms Wide Open in the Kansas City International House of Prayer 24/7 Prayer and Worship Chapel. I hope it further enhances the potential of this moment!


Have a most triumphant Friday!


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13 thoughts on “Intense Brokenness, Humility, New Revelation, and…

    • Thanks Emily. Sometimes, it's real difficult putting ourselves out there like that. We fear how other people may misinterpret our intended messages. Yet, I feel like todays world NEEDS to read our messages and say, "Dear God, this is so transparent that I can actually SEE myself in this story!" Then, when it REALLY REACHES into the very center of their soul, it has the opportunity to FREE them… just as we are being freed at the very same moment!

      Thanks for always appreciating that… and thanks for always living like that! ; )

  1. Thank you for sharing this with me. I am going through something with someone I love very much and the harder I try to get her acceptance and her love, the worse she makes me feel. I pray for her and I know God hears my prayers and will answer them, it's just hard to stand back and be her punching bag in the process. I will not give up on her because God didn't give up on me when I kept pushing Him away. Your words always put a new light on things for me and gives me hope. You are a true man of God.

  2. …and my soul cries out for God at this very moment

    I am that dried out sponge sitting on the kitchen sink blended into the scenery so no one will notice the depth of my pain. I am doing this so no one will have pity or feel sorry for me. I am just waiting for God to show up and do His Thing. I expect no one, but Him to be my Provider, Healer and Deliverer. Through the years, I learned and come to accept the fact that humanity can only do so much given that its resources are limited by how much he/she sees, understands, trusts and believes in God…it is like walking in the fog and knowing the route to your intended destination even if you cannot see it, but it is harder to determine when you have never been where you are trying to get to…

    Truthfully…I love and hunger for human gratification to an unhealthy extent…and I expect far too much from humanity…I am addicted to sympathy and human gratification like sleeping medicine…it is a semi private escape from my having to face and accept reality for what it really is in my life…I eat and deny when I am uncomfortable…I show my vulnerabilities to some and cover up for all others…I fear rejection

    • Christine, you need to turn that into a book chapter! It's pure truth, perfectly articulated. I guess the thing I want to say to you is this: you have a gift for writing, and the world has a right to benefit from your messages… so please hurry up and finish your book. Write like the wind bulseye, and I will sit beside of you at a future book signing. : )

  3. I so appreciate your transparency. Letting people see where we really were in our darkest moments, shows them what the Lord brought us out of. I love when people are real with me because I learn more and am inspired.

    Since the Bait of satan class started (and for some even before) we are getting victory. Tests or trials from God, it can be a difficult learning experience. The devil is not happy. He's trying with all his might to destroy us and our relationships, keeping us in fear so that we will give up fighting in the spirit. We all seem to think we're in this alone and all these things keep happening to just us. The devil WANTS us to think that we are the only one being tested and that no one would understand if we ask for help (he's using lots of offense [ironically] and our insecurities. He wants to grab us by the throats and keep us paralyzed with negative emotions that Christ ALREADY went to the cross for.

    It can't be swept under the carpet any longer, it's not just babble. It's real and we can't stop praying just because the holidays are coming. God is going to complete what he started 🙂

    Amen and have a fabulous day


    • Shooo! I love these comments today! I can tell this is going to be a great blog interaction day!!

      Kelly, I am praying for you right now! I pray for GOD to step in and heal that relationship you mentioned.

      Mel, God spoke very clearly to me in prayer meeting last night… that this Christmas Season is going to be the Christmas of Miracles! Immanuel is here, God is with us… and He's not going anywhere anytime soon! Amen! : )

      • By the way: thank you everyone who posted my blog on your facebook yesterday! It made a HUGE DIFFERENCE in our unique visitors for the day! Did I say HUGE difference? If we had 20 people do that every day, we would spread like a wild fire all over the face of the earth in NO TIME! Thank you again and God bless you all! : )

  4. I read your blog and had planned to comment something completely different then what I'm about to say.. reading the other comments… wow. My hearts breaking. So many of us are hurting. So many of us are in the fight of our lives! I've been there myself in recent days. As I'm rereading the comments and listening to "Arms Wide Open" a verse comes to mind…

    "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise." Psalm 51:17

    Though we're all facing tremendous heartache hold tight! This is the perfect place… the soil is fertile for God to move. He desires our broken hearts.

    Great blog Chuck! So needful. Keep letting God speak through you!

  5. Christine, I just re-read your comment and WOW:

    "Truthfully…I love and hunger for human gratification to an unhealthy extent…and I expect far too much from humanity…I am addicted to sympathy and human gratification like sleeping medicine…it is a semi private escape from my having to face and accept reality for what it really is in my life…I eat and deny when I am uncomfortable…I show my vulnerabilities to some and cover up for all others…I fear rejection"


  6. Thank you so much! I have been struggling with something for a while now and I would always give it to God and then take it back…well last night at BVC prayer night I gave it to GOD and felt my break through and GOD telling me that he LOVES ME!! And I know that he does I gues I had to get it through my hard head that GOD really LOVES ME!! Thank you so much it seems that your blogs are always right on for what I need when I need!! THANKS TO OUR AWESOME FATHER!!

  7. Hits right on with what people are going through, what I have been going through. Remember from Thursday that wolf in sheep's clothing I told you about? lol Just one example of tricks and schemes of the devil to try to break us. To anyone that is struggling right now with a battle, I strongly encourage you to get closer with your best friends and pull in others to the circle to create an UNBREAKABLE bond where we can carry each other through these trials and stand back to back and side by side against the relentless assaults of the devil and his band of fools!

  8. Thank you all for sharing your stories because I believe it is by us sharing our stories that we break th hold the enemy has on us by keeping them a secret. I am praying for each of you right now and that God will break you down and build you back up into His masterpiece. It is not easy to accept God doing this, but in the end it is so worth it.