On Monday, one of my dearest friends of all time died and went to heaven. Here is the message I posted on Rocky’s facebook wall…
I’m so crushed I can barely get out of bed. Rocky, you were one of the most amazing people I’ve ever known. I’m so sorry we fell so far out of touch recently. You “liked” one of my facebook statuses last week and I thought to call you, but never had a minute to make that call. Dear God, the regrets. I thank God for your TRUE friendship and I so wish I could have said goodbye! Rest in peace FELLA!
Rocky always called me “fella.” He would say, “Hey, fella” and “Ok, fella.” I loved the way he said that to me in his ultra humble tone. Rocky’s love was unconditional! He always made me feel like the greatest person in the universe.
Rocky won the lotto in 1996… and he practically gave away every dollar of his winnings. I personally watched him give waitresses $100 tips… especially one time in West Virginia-a waitress came running out and said, “Sir, I think you made a huge mistake.” And Rocky just smiled and said, “You keep that for yourself young lady.” And she broke down and started crying on the sidewalk like a baby saying, “Sir, you have no idea how much this means to me. I’m suffering so bad to take care of my two children right now… and I’m all alone.” And Rocky, put his arm around her and said, “It’s gonna be OK because God cares about you… don’t give up. He’s gonna help you through this time.”
When that season was over, there was nothing left of those dollars… nothing but that same HEART Rocky had before the millions. He is the only person I’ve ever met that went from having nothing, to having everything, and back to having nothing… and remained perfectly unaffected by the journey. Rocky did not care about personal possessions. He cared about PEOPLE. He lived every day of his life to see other people smile. Rocky loved his two sons so much, I don’t see how they will survive without him, unless GOD steps in (and I’m certain He will).
The sad part of this story is that I’ve fallen out of touch with Rocky these past few years… and recently, I thought about having him over for dinner, but I failed to act on that feeling. Now he is gone and I am filled with grief to think of how lonely he may have been.
I’m not trying to depress anyone with this blog. I just hope that my transparency will trigger a new awareness to the lonely people in your circle.
I miss Rocky Lane Floyd so much more than I can describe it with words. His departure is tearing me apart. He was always there for me… and if I could just roll back time by a month of two, Emily and I would lavished our love on him.
Don’t worry, I’m not going to beat myself up forever… but I am taking the time to properly process this pain in prayer. I am asking God to help me create more balance so that my dear friends and family will never wonder if I care.
I wrote this message to spark a love revolution in this tribe. Can you help me make this happen? Please, in honor of my friend Rocky… do something extravagant for someone else over the next few days. I mean something that will bring them to TEARS (of appreciation). Also, please pray for a renewed awareness to the lonely people in your reach. I know we cannot reach everyone… but we can make a very big difference for someone before this week is over!
Your thoughts? Also, please let me know about how you are acting on this challenge.
I just prayed for you with tremendous passion. I hope you feel the difference!
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With much love…
Dream Big, Live Bold, and Make the Difference!