Happy Thursday Everyone!
Hettie has returned to us! She sent a reply to yesterday’s blog… and I feel compelled to make this the topic of today’s discussion. First, I’m pasting her comments… then I will write my reply. I hope this blesses Hettie… and I hope it helps anyone that may be in a similar situation!
Hey Chuck… I know it has been awhile. I began to sort of fall of the path that God had me on. This Blog was really a coincidence. I have been trying to force a relationship that I believe God didn’t want for me anymore, maybe not at all.
I feel so lost sometimes. I let everyone down and I made myself look like such a hypocrite. I talked so bad about the person that was hurting me and I went right back to him, WOW how dumb huh. Sometimes I feel so alone and I need someone there and it doesn’t feel like God is, which I know he is, so I go running back to this person and I think I love him but when I am with him I just don’t feel happy and that I am following what God wants for me.
I feel like my life is spinning out of control sometimes and no one will stop it, I really need some guidance I am so lost and have no clue were to begin to find my way to were I need to be.
I’m sorry Chuck… and to everyone that I let down. I was doing so good and then Satan drew me back to something I was running from. I dearly apologize to everyone. I’m just so young and sometimes I don’t know what to do with myself.
Chuck, keep me in your prayers. I am trying with all of my might to do what is right and what God has in store for me. I guess I don’t know how to look for what God is trying to tell me. I don’t know what he wants from me so then I feel lost and alone.
Even though I haven’t been attending church I still pray alot and read my bible everyday. I just hope God will show me something soon so I know where to start my life with him, and I also hope that I can interpret what he wants and that it’s him wanting it for me. I hope that I can begin to build trust with the ones that matter the most to me, I have let everyone down that cares.
Good morning Hettie… your comments bring me GREAT joy! I have been praying for you and I have not lost hope that you would someday rise again! There is a tiny little seed inside of your heart… the seed of a history maker! You’re never going to be able to enjoy going in the wrong direction again. God started that fire you’re carrying… he began a very real work in your life… and HE will be faithful to complete it!
That was beautiful of you to apologize… and it’s a very rare thing for someone, especially your age, to have that kind of humility! It’s even further evidence that God is working in your life! Way to go on reading your bible and praying… whenever we put Gods word in our heart, it will NOT RETURN TO HIM WITHOUT PRODUCING FRUIT! It wakes us up at night like the whispering winds… it wrestles down wrong thinking and gives us disgust for wrong actions… it leads us home!
You already know the path that leads to that amazing future you know God has for you! You already know that it calls for the burning of every bridge… for you to RUN YOUR RACE and NEVER LOOK BACK! You’re only a few steps away from being right where you were… and setting yourself up for some CRAZY HAPPY DAYS!
I’m not promising that this will be easy… in fact it will not be easy. There will be times of intense persecution! The hell you are coming out of will hunt for you! The flames will grab for your ankles often… dark forces will circle you and taunt you like devouring vultures! But I know so well, the MIGHTY LOVE AND POWER of God! He will send his ANGELS… he will make you strong… he will be MORE RELENTLESS! Hettie, I am confident that you CAN make it, and you will make it! And you will not have to make it ALONE!
When you were at church, there were some women that REALLY caught a heart for you… they are ready to TEACH you the ways of the FORCE just as soon as you are ready to LEARN the ways of the FORCE! So… get your container of gasoline and a box of matches… and BURN THE BRIDGES OF YOUR PAST. Get rid of EVERYTHING that carries the potential of enticing you back into misery. Be polite and humble… and be firm! Let your friends know that you are going away so you can get well… and you will come back for them in something like 5 years from today… once you are healthy and well able to rescue them!
As far as needing to know what God has for your future and how you are going to get there… don’t stress out! For now… just know that God LOVES you like crazy and these next few years are supposed to become the best days of your life!
Hope this helps Hettie… and I pray this blog adds great value to all our amazing blogger friends! Please send your comments… chat with you all later!